Criteria of a gamer….

Somehow I’ve been wondering what makes a gamer, a gamer…. Professional skills? Thats 9    out of 10 will say… Is it ethics of a gamer’s attitude? Less picked requirement in a world of casual game I suppose… But in my case, I choice 50 out of 50, gamemanship! Fantastic skills along with attitude and passion with the game. For myself I dare to say I’m all rounder… Ranging from FPS to RTS, I can play any of them and do above average, but that is not enough because the demands are pretty steep, furthermore it is not easy to maintain too… Especially in NS, I felt pretty discouraged many of the times whenever I thought of this question.

PMS*Asterisk made it this far but based on DotA2 only, that isn’t enough though, but they still earned my respect and admiration due to their passion and skills for games and their fans, whom they did not disappoint and showed their professionalism in it. Many teams in Singapore are like that, but in the end it kinda breaks out and ended up in form of disband, reason due to sponsorship again and supports from local government. Its sad… Which I hope that the current standing Asterisk clan will not end up in this dark path…

Mentioned and thought before, I will wanna create a team of gamers in our group, but we have to brain up a name for it to make it a foundation. What do we base our team name from? Its something that some of us will consider about… Games that we play will be ranging from many kinds…

Training a beginner from scratch is easy, I do not discriminate and show prejudicial looks to fellow female gamer, I do voice this first… Because I do encourage more to join in such communities as it makes things in a fun and interesting way. However, when choosing a gamer to train is something tough, and it can be a drag… Stubborn character and resisting changes,  these traits are the symptoms of a difficult trainee And things would even be hectic if couples are training each other, you have to beware of how you communicate and resulting in quarrels will be inevitable…

Reason of such…. is some consideration of how am I gonna start a gaming group, and walk towards the golden gate of glory…. Will I succeed? I wonder, again it is a challenge but its gonna be fun… Definitely I will wanna be part of Flash.SG team, definitely and definitely *.*

Still thinking of a purpose…

I do have to admit being in army really did dull my sense, and for some reason that I avoided getting into command school, partly is due to my health problem as well as some personal problems which I do not wish to suffer to serve the nation in such a manner for me… I’m not like some of my friends who aspire to be an officer or specialist and even cut out to be like them to excel in BMT and get posted into the future aspect in the 2 years of liability, but as for me I still fighting for a constant 8-5 posting.

As last week’s management was pretty wonked up, I was given my final 2 days leave and now I’ve none left… At least I spent that well meeting up with Hong and Desmond which I’ve not seen for more than months… I thought to myself, regarding surviving in the gaming industry, and I did have that in mind to start a clan for online gaming, majoring in LoL, DOTA and MW3 for the starting phase… Looking at how PMS*Asterisk did, led by Tammy Tang (furryfish) it indeed inspired me in many ways, on how they did and definitely enjoying with what they are doing as part of cyber gaming furthermore they are a rare breed to venture into famous spotlight to even the central of many countries. MYM too with the infamous Daryl Koh (iceiceice), I was telling myself my skills and knowledge are starting to rot in these 2 years and I have to prevent it… BUT HOW!

Well, Hong is one of the person that I’ve seen to have the experience of competitive gaming since he had taken part before in major tournaments, it wouldn’t be difficult. Based on what he had mentioned he lost all the contacts ever since enlistment, well that proves it that something is wrong in the 2 years jail :/ But well, since he is ORD-ed, he have some time to spare and furthermore his preparing for D3, and it DOES attracts me to go and acquire it but it is not easy as financial wise -.-

Nonetheless, that doesn’t really stop me from thinking about continue gaming, furthermore it is something that I can do and enjoy, so why not? I do know that the society of the higher up does not look at cyber gaming in the positive way, but that will not hinder the process… I can visualise the future when my team will be in Colosseum@SG training, and taking part in major tournaments

Besides that working in Garena is part of my dream after ORD Last but not least, PMS*Asterisk will be heading for the next competition~ Cheers for them

Some post~

Ok, got posted out to be a regimental police… Apparently it does not look as slack as it seems =.= its tough ok~ enough said as i dun wanna include much of this in the page

During my army life, I’ve been looking back alot, and I mean A LOT into my poly life, thinking about what I will be doing when I ORD, and some of the interest and plans about what to do to my life… Apparently it is not gonna be easy especially when I am in Singapore. University itself already is 1 main issue typically require one to possess a degree in order to secure a job, as the old sayings. For me I will pursue a degree provided if I have a place and definitely the money to, furthermore I still enjoy my time studying as you will be learning more things than in army =.=

Had supper with Tee Ang and Gab, shared many things too talking about lifestyle in Singapore…Usually these are the topics that we talk about when we are reaching our age of turning into new adults, which is something that cannot be avoided…sigh….Well that is part of being in stress nation…Honestly speaking, I prefer stressing over educational stuffs over soldier stuffs.

After reading some article from this colleague gamer, Aerial Phirkan, who is also a professional e-gamer, http://newnation.sg/2011/08/singapore-gamers-not-receiving-enough-support-from-govt-facebook-note/, I understood how he felt because I myself once wanted to be a full-time gamer, just like some people in Korea where they game as a living, representing their country and bringing honor in a different way, but why can’t Singapore do it? Isn’t it discrimination to a particular sports? I told myself that when I have a chance, I will want to join the players in Singapore and make it into international competition and bring glory as well, and to bring it straight into attention to the government of how we, the gamers feel… Definitely support local talent turns out to be nothing more than a casual statement, all I see are foreigners being supported-.-

Sigh, having said all these, I still need to think about what my future lies too… To make it happen, it does require tremendous team effort because it is a huge change project. When I heard about clans in Singapore achieving victory in various tournaments, I was amazed as they are Singapore’s very own team, furthermore its a full fledged team~! So why do we hesitate to cheer for them?

All I have to say this week ends here, and I have to again concentrate on what is my purpose… and I still miss the days in poly, times when doing FYP in library despite off days and talking to facilitators as though we are friends, this manner will allow us to excel beyond normal education could… It is really a great memory stored.~

POP LO

Like finally~~~~ Im outta that island -.- Very very long and tough days yet memorable moments with my platoon…then came the BBQ which was pretty fun, but in the end brought home alot of food =.= I’m still thinking how to finish them, besides I’m still having fever since last monday, i guess its over-zealous and over-exhaustion, and right now im having medication which is not ideal too….

Supposed to do alot of things yet I keep having the intention to stay home and rest, I do not know why but well, the holiday week is gonna end very soon in about 2 days time and alot of things are left undone, then it will be the postings sigh… Hopefully I will be able to get into what I’ve wished for…

Finally the schedule is here!

Phew, alright today is the final book in that I will have to go through before my POP. Excited but sian because it is damn early to go back in but 6 days of counting down to Float@Marina encourages me.

8 Oct = POP, rest a little bit in the afternoon and then BBQ at night
9 Oct =  Rest for the day till noon, catch up with my brothers~
10 Oct = Head for medical stuffs in the morning and then event stuff in the afternoon
11 Oct = Time for some Terra-Cotta Exhibition and Lan outing
12 Oct = Stay at home to study some stuffs related to my interest
13 Oct =  Catch up with platoon mates if there is 1 such event
14 Oct = Check on my posting and decide what to do
15 Oct = Outing with Republicans
16 Oct = Rest and prepare for posted unit =.=

Well i guess that is the schedule which is tentative for changes still. And damn I’m still having fever despite booking in soon…. Well hope I will be able to go back safely and complete most of my stuffs in camp before lights out for a rest =.=

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My personal discipline…

This could rather be my principle or whatever you gonna call it…. Right now serving in the national service in BMT phase is getting hectic, hectic, and worst, its taking a huge toll on me, however that doesn’t really stop me much to move on further….Yes I am aware that it is extremely stressful… Especially just last week, it was field camp week where the entire company got tekaned for some or no reasons at all~ that was the time when I broke down alot yet unable to hold back… at that point in time I was wondering what am I doing here and kept thinking about my family and friends… I felt helpless and hopeless, desperately seeking help and assistance to get me outta situation.

Well, nonetheless I am left with 1 more final dash on month to finish my BMT and graduate from Tekong~ So despite having my medical condition all that, I can only do is endure through it and see what I have in the future, hope that is not difficult for me still…

Alright, for these 4 months I am proud to say that in the past 3 months I’ve yet to touch any fast food at all Hence I will want to set a goal that after my POP during the block leaves, what I will want to achieve and do to fulfill myself and reward myself who had gone through hell x.x

• Eat some good food
• Fast food
• Marche
• Pastamania
• Chicken Rice
• Bat Kut Teh
• Prata
• Japanese Food
• STARBUCKS
• Definitely some of my favorite hawker centre!
• Buy some things for my computer
• USB to USB cable
• Cat5 Cable
• 1TB Portable Harddisk, more likely to be WD Passport Essential SE
• Razer Lycosa
• Visit Asian Civilization Museum for Terra Cotta Army Exhibition which is ending on October 16 2011, anyone wanna join me?
• Visit Republic Polytechnic, find my mentors who taught me well
• Have a good meal with my family and relatives, this is a must for every bookout that I have, even now!
• Catch up with my poly friends, especially those who walked with me in the toughest time till graduation
• Go to Gabriel’s new house and continue fixing his home theater, perhaps internet wireless design in his mansion
• Read up on my Warcraft Novel and listen to music for relaxation time
• Go to temples for thanksgiving session
• Meet up with my trustful platoon mate
• Have a fun lan gaming session with my brothers!
• Watch movies at home with my family!
• Meditation Period
• Perhaps go back to church to see my long lost friends, especially QiWei
• Personal Gaming session at home
• Catch up with Mr Sandman, who had not played with me for 4 months~
• Refresh my coding skills and things that I’ve learned in poly, thats definitely
• Watch anime!

Now thats alot of thing to do, and to fulfill even I also not sure how will I finish all of them, and the list is still tentative to changes D: but well no point thinking about whether I can finish or not because I will set my mind that I HAVE to finish it and maybe I have to draw some time to visit private specialist and my family doctor for my medical condition. So far that is all for this post, and my determination to the endurance, hope that after field camp, things will not get worse but for the better for me =.=