The Chevaliar in the dark…

Why is it that all the time, many things often happen? The very fundamental purpose is such a vague yet obvious however lamish reason, but yet it is still occurring. Frustration never fails to fill the atmosphere duh~

I only gotta say, this is the way life it is, whenever we do something of a particular reason, we often expect it to happen in its deserved ways, and when it does not result in the way that we expected, words of mindless,groundless and thoughtless starts rumbling in hearts of us. Thats one irony in humans…

Speaking about system is something that is most irritating… Forcefully mindset changing, reluctance on admitting and destructive convincing strategy… Bigger picture yeah…. I know this word, often playing games of a child duh, now you have the answer of why Picasso doesn’t draw ‘Big’ picture, what a fantastic art piece system is always giving, nice…

Ok enough of rumbling, just sick of some stuffs, things happen as well as shits do. When we are unhappy in such period of times, it is ok to grumble for a while, but we gotta move on to find happiness, stepping out of agony. You do not want to be trapped in such a position, because it is not fun seriously…

So what kind of happy times occurred during unhappy period? Gaming around at LAN is something that we did, shooting down problems really reduces stress, but its not healthy to do that ALL the time. Gaming suite in Ironforge Games Haven, with the close friends blasting on Wii with Guitars, letting out steams yo. Catching up and celebrating people’s birthday is also fantastic to be basked in someone’s happiness haha.

Sometimes, I was wondering when we encounter problems, it is best and best to be calm and think about it… most of all relevance is the primary factor for a successful communication…..

After my previous post, a dream has finally been reached its destination. I’m so happy about this even though it doesn’t happen on me, but I just…. had an adrenaline rush of excitement regarding this. Somehow I came to believe that God is really a someone who will help no matter what, and hence I came to believe that He is real.

For such a thinking to come to past, I guess most of the people must be thinking I’m insane to think that way, but well that is really me The borderless person of religious topic. Since chalet everything is moving very smoothly for my serving the CG, honestly I had the feeling that I don’t really much belong to the CG even until a month ago, for some personal reason and it gradually dissipated within me that I shouldn’t think that way having felt that my faith and spiritual growth is raising up and how my thinking has matured over time. I’m happy that I can help the CG as much as I can, things in chalet that I help to start fire and cook for everyone… that is real tremendous sort of YES feeling hahaha…

Yesterday’s leaders meeting somehow made many of us felt the importance of the adaption of mobilization 3.0, a leaderless culture.. Such a cool thing. Imagine going for a list of things that is being issued to you and you act upon it, over and over again the cycle repeats, you will be feeling nothing except a corpse of being manipulated and dependance on upper levels, that is not what Pastor wishes for. We will grow up with the decisive mind and spirituality over us, along with the faith that is burning within us. Especially for the MEN, we will also raise up with ‘Haki’ in us while confronting with difficulties in the life, and all the girls will go HU HU…. ok kidding haha…

This shall be 1 part of the post, and after some revelational thinking, the other part will come, hope everyone in the CG will raise up too.  Starting my lifestyle with target planning, is something cool yo

Ok, after Gabriel has enlisted into the army, there has been many boom-bah-pow happening hence I was not blogging for a hectic lengthy time, Kenneth and Miaow Guan are sometimes busy, just like the Yan Sisters sometimes are too. Hence I decided to help out as part of being with E8… Seriously, I can feel the stress ho ho ho, but its somehow a learning journey for me, and I will gladly accept it to growing part of me.

Somehow had quite  number of discussion with Kenneth and Miaow Guan relating to CG stuffs, and I found out how the CG can grow, and in what sort of direction can they head. It is somehow really a thing planned by God to make everyone in the CG raise up, but in the sense of doing different things. It was never easy doing such a work, at times you will gradually feel a little bad that you are like giving instructions. Those who are reading this, I officially tell you that during this period, my chloleric temperament will surface, sounding weird but its part of me I supposed. Though I seriously have no interest and adores being a leader, more over a temporaily one.

Definitely, after going through a short period of so-called trial, I’ve came to know that actually being a leader can really quite a lot of things, unknowingly through enlightenment seriously. Pain and suffering that Gabriel has went through really struck and serendipited into my mind, its somehow anedoctal, but it is so-real-true. But hopefully, I won’t have to do this forever, yeah~

Ok off to busy life but will of excitement Cheers~

Ho ho 9 September I blogged again which is today haha, firstly its Peck Hoon’s birthday so happy birthday to her yeah….

Next moving on, holiday I’m quite troubled with stuffs, like professional profiling -.- hectic project work and my advisor is not replying to my email! my tian!!! How am I supposed to submit my work leh LOL I guess I will request aid from other facilitator…. TROUBLESOME MAN

Working and working, I wonder I working for what LOL currently helping my dad with his digital thumbprint locks, another hectic stuff also =.= gotta know how to do hacking and configuration >.< But not so bad haiz~

Somehow I love doing my things as a CG photographer EDITTING WITH PHOTOSHOP IS SUPA FUN MAN LOL mix and match here and there~~ Best plastic surgery in the world hehehhe…. Alright

Ok a minor revelation ever since my fasting, and I discovered that after these 30days of fast I’ve really grown mentally and spiritually, able to have sight beyond sight, and hearing beyond the hidden… Deeper analysis as well, right now I need to make these abilities into a refinement and allow it to use it in the future too.

And lastly, staying over at Qi Wei’s house is super fun LOL grow more hungrier now and appetite increase LOL midnite still can go out makan food and lan muahhaha

Alright I’m crapping now, cyaz and signing off

I wonder wheres my motivation to blog recently, just too hectic to continue blogging or rather shag haha… I’ll try to make it a long post then…

Okay, I’ve went through 30 days of fasting periods consuming vegetarian, Christian call it Daniel Fast, while the Buddhist calls it the regular Vegetarian Period, I was intending to clear my toxic of meat in my body to grow physically and spiritually, but well since it came into a conjunction of those 2 faith, I might as well do it in the name too yeah…

Therefore why I fast? The question you ask… I actually fasted for a few people in fact, other than myself, then the question is still WHY and WHO? Because I felt the need to, and close friends help each other too, so why not?

Gabriel – To get him actually to score for his NAPFA, actually for silver, but I pushed his faith to challenge him into getting gold in the end haha, but now I think I diverted that fasting period to get him into 8-5 posting instead. Reason of this is simple, think far for long term, not short term ^^

Yanhui & Zoe – Well, these 2 of them are quite clear cut, hoping for them to pass their prelims and definitely during their O’levels their mind will be in clarity and granting them mind beyond mind. Hoping they will pass with flying colors and getting into the school they yearn for. I believe so too.

Ryan – One of my Gabriellite buddy haha, brotherhood still stands, though you may not be with us for some time, I hope my blessing my reach you haha, may you find your path in this life as well. You may think that you are not up to it but infact I can sense your potential within you, scientific term, convert and transform it into kinetic powers!

Anthony – The person that I’m quite talkative to, is taking his exam this year too, major one but I hope that he will be able to focus with the help of God, and do well for his paper. Mugging with a vision, is something that I felt is something that I believe so.

Yanjia – University had started, I can even felt that shes getting busier each day, all I can hope for is to give her mental support. Hoping that she will not tire herself out not even falling sick, and her life will not be greatly affected, whatever isolated labels and outside invalid  comments she may face or heard, it will all be deemed void.

Well I think that is all for or sufficient my 30 days of fast can provide to at least these people, I envision what I fasted for, will come true as well yes.

“These five things make one’s gift good. What five? One gives with reverence, one gives thoughtfully, one gives with his own hand, one gives things that are good, and one gives thinking of the result.” – A.III.172

Weining’s Birthday yesterday was a blast, everything and every story will be in facebook ^^ STAY TUNE!!!!

Been a month since I’ve blogged haha, tendency to blog is really low -.- rather hectic lifestyle nowadays that drove me nuts as well, school works and maybe some personal issues… Well thats life for you! But these days is quite fun as interaction was superb!!!

Few days ago helped Yanjia with her xiao hong hahaha, then many of the uni people had gotten their portable machines, cool yo they require it sooner or later anyway but well its fun helping Yanjia and Hian to browse Funan, at that time Then recently went back to Funan to help them find sleeves, so on the way gotten uncle Teo to join us also since he so free Qi Wei and Gab aso haha~ Love helping out friends actually D:

Right now I’m going through fasting period, well cleanse my body of toxic is a good scientific way to phrase it haha, no meat for me for a month but then thats simple task for me longest is 6 months before hehe~ Yesterday went to crash Derry’s house, so long never see him, miss him man since he went into the army! But now see him, he super buffed and is slacking crazy being a driver RAH!

Had CG earlier on, we were told to rise up as leaders, so I was pondering well well well, fun and interesting, but to me personally, if I had a chance to become a leader, I will select the choice of no, because I love  to help leader than being a leader, ensuring that the CG has sufficient aid, LOL nonsense right? Thats me Hian joined the CG, so I guessed thats her second time since 6 months ago? I’m not sure, but the sight of her really amuses me thats all being an ayam thats all~

Therefore, I was pondering for a very longtime about E4 status, how am I able to lend a hand to QiWei also, because he is a friend to me, so I definitely will wanna help yeah~ for this I need to think about it… Of course if I am able to help out with my CG is definitely a fun thing too. IT WILL BE VERY INTERESTING!!!!

“A leader is best when people barely know he exists, when his work is done, his aim fulfilled, they will say: we did it ourselves.” – Lao Tzu

Been awhile since I’ve blog, due to busy routines in school and also some activities outside, parf until I wanna go bonkers…. Few dayys ago my heartache re-acted, was supposed to go lunch with YanJia then when I exited my house, I felt the tremendous pain, so I went back home and collapsed on the floor. Then my parent sent me to the doctor, somehow I was sent to have an X-ray screening, but the result showed nothing much and it was deemed as normal, well I guess I’m  over hectic over my life, gotta slow down a little. Apology to YanJia, last minute pangseh her =/

Now I can’t laugh too hard, breathe too hard, carry heavy things, many limitations, it somehow triggers the suffering, haiz what a disease =.= passed down from my ancestor sumore, and the most interesting thing is it happened on the eclipse day =.= Well thats all for this heart stuff!

Next on the RP issue, I was suspected with H1N1, hence was sent to checkup at CGH, granted MC to stay at home for 7 days, hence I requested Leave of Absence for my school, days after days, I was doing PBL at home hmm not so bad HAHAHA! Well the ironic thing is this, after 7 days, went back to school, my LOA wasn’t approved =.= fantastic isn’t it? Until a few weeks later it was being approved, and I did not get a chance to sit for my UT2, how great can that be?

From what I think is that RP is using the students as a guinea pig, do wanna close the school, hah! JOKE!  They wanna have an experiment with us the students as the lab mice. Observe how the virus gonna spread, and how we the students gonna counter it -.- IF you recover, goodfor you, if you fall sick, thats just bad luck for you~ Rah, we are not lab mice duh~ toying with lives =.= wad a laughter! Closing the school for 7 days during that period will die issit -.- nonsense principal =.=

Good thing my classmates are a helpful bunch of people, keep revising with me, then everytime after school we spend time together, either play game or revise work, mostly isgaming but well a few more weeks to go only, which I think is 3 more weeks to the end of semester -.- Again thats a crap thing existing in RP…. I wonder how we are gonna survive man, with a principal like that, imposing some new rules to show they had done some counter-measure, for human to see only -.-

Next, moving on to the CG, few weeks ago I introduced DGN, which is dragonica to the CG, somehow some people started playing aha, team based -.- wanted to implement WOW, but the size is too humongous, hence I scrapped that idea, and WOW isn’t that easy for everyone to play, my purpose of implementing DGN is to allow the people in my CG to have fun and whats more the females in the CG will puke if L4D too much -.- thats not good we want equality! Hence the period of DGN kicks in

Some WOW screenshot

Alright very few of them xD shall show some dragonica ones at a later time xD WOW is a nice game!!